Written by Emily
I stared at the blank “Add New Post” screen for quite sometime this morning. What could I possibly write about? I have nothing new to say, no new news to share, I haven’t gotten any cute clothes to showcase recently or found something new to wear to Mass.
In fact, I’ve been pretty down in the dumps lately. I had all last year to be excited about our wedding, and getting confirmed, and moving into our new house. But, what is there to look forward to now? I’m at that part of my life where it just seems like time stands still. No big life events happening anytime soon to anticipate, going through the daily motions of going to work, coming home, eating dinner with my husband, and finding something to do at night to pass the time. I’ve hardly been enjoying life anymore. I was even having problems with my prayer life.
Don’t get me wrong. I have so, so much to be thankful for. A loving husband to come home to every night, a home to come to every night, finally being in a faith that I appreciate, having a loving family. But I’ve been having problems finding joy in my life, and letting God in. Instead of asking God for guidance and help, I’ve been turning away. I’m trying to get back into the routine of praying every night. I’m trying to appreciate everything that I do have and everything that I’ve been blessed with. I’m putting my faith in God and in the fact that He provides for me. Even if I haven’t been the happiest lately, He’s always there.
Hear my cry, O God;
listen to my prayer.
From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.For you have been my refuge,
a strong tower against the foe.
I long to dwell in your tent forever
and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. For you, God, have heard my vows;
you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.
Increase the days of the king’s life,
his years for many generations. May he be enthroned in God’s presence forever;
appoint your love and faithfulness to protect him.
Then I will ever sing in praise of your name
and fulfill my vows day after day.
What do you do when God seems so far away?